Desperate to get pregnant

Dear Pastor,

I have a loving mother. She has been with me through the good and the bad times.

But right now, I am having a bad time dealing with a decision she made for me when I was pregnant at a young age.

She never allowed me to carry the child because she said that I was not ready to become a mother. I did not understand anything about pregnancy or babies.

So after finishing high school, I started a programme three years after. I got enrolled in a cosmetology course.

After I finished the course, I started making some money and everything was great until I found out I was pregnant again.

Like I said before, I was already two months pregnant. However, I told my mother when the pregnancy was three months and one week old, because I was living with her.

She was not happy about it, so she forced me to do another abortion. When I told her she cursed me and told everyone about it.

I was so embarrassed until she gave me something to drink that I was not supposed to drink. Throughout my pregnancy, everything was okay, but I was stressed.

Every visit I made to the doctor, he would tell me that my blood pressure was high. The doctor gave me an injection and I lost consciousness.

MISCARRIAGE

I woke up in so much pain and I was bleeding uncontrollably. I found out that I was no longer pregnant.

I could not believe what I was told and from the time I received that news, I have never been the same again. I cried every day for almost three months and I never had an appetite.

I started living with my sister and I got a job. This job took my mind off what happened to me.

But seeing people with their children brings back these memories. So here I am now living on my own trying to get pregnant so that I can have a child.

But it's not happening, so I went to the doctor and he said that I have polycystic ovary syndrome, and he said it just needed to be treated.

It's been three months now and I am still not pregnant. Pastor, please could you pray for me? I would really appreciate it.

Unknown

Dear Unknown,

I will remember you in prayer. I know that what your mother did was wrong. She encouraged you to terminate your pregnancy and I gather from the tone of your letter that she was very much against you having a child. So she might have discussed this matter with the doctor and you lost the pregnancy the second time although you did not wish for that to happen.

Now that you believe that you are ready to have a child, it's not happening. The doctor has given you reasons why you have not yet got pregnant.

You can't force yourself to become pregnant now but what you could do is work with your doctor. I hope that for your own peace of mind you will be able to get pregnant.

I assure you of my prayers and I wish you well.

Pastor